One of the things I would miss the most after going back to my college is checking my mum sleeping every night. It kind of giving me a satisfaction feeling to see mum sleep so soundly and peacefully. Maybe because I always see her with tiring face from working all day. So every night, before I go to bed, I would peek from the door to check on her. I did in fact several times having a thought to tuck her in and sing twinkle little star. But it would be a total awkward moment for us if she suddenly awake and found me patting her like a baby. That would score me a week of a blushing face. So, I'll pass. I am weird. I am not accustomed to express my love through patting and/or stroking hair. My way of showing affections more to doing things like cooking to subject matters or making cards! I listen, I understand, I give my respond by giving the I-am-with-you face. But I am not the kind of a person who give hugs to calm people. Unfortunately, I am the kind of person who likes to be hugged by the person dear to my heart whenever I feel sad. Yeah, imma selfish old hag. :D
Oh, a quickie update, I stumbled upon this good status to be read while strolling on my facebook feed. Its worth to have a thought about this, because it suits me well.
"Forgive them even if they are not sorry."
When you are able to forgive others, even if they are unapologetic for the wrongs that they have committed against you, only then will your mind truly be free. Those who are willing to hold grudges against those who trespass against them are only doing their own selves a disservice. Being unforgiving to someone doesn't benefit any person at all. It causes pain to be experienced over and over again that just doesn't need to be thought about on such a high level.
Being unforgiving also tends to distort a person's viewpoint on life as a whole. Instead of being able to take risks, and see opportunities for what they really are, those who are unforgiving take less risks, and only see what life is from their own point of view, since they are less willing to trust in others and their experiences. So forgive, forgive when they apologize, and when they are not sorry, doing so will free your soul, and let you live to reach your greatest potential.
Recently, I did this deep breathing things occasionally. Well, I am trying to teach my self to forgive! Inhale... Exhale... Let go... I have this silly idea that this deep breathing things could help me let go of past hurt. May it work out because I am getting tired having the unpleasant memory clinging in my mind. I dont want that. Who needs bad memory and cried everytime it cross our mind? Insane.
Good night!
